Yep, I decided to skip a weigh in today due to having a full on “cheat” day Saturday when I celebrated my wedding anniversary with my husband. I also had a ~cough~ unexpected visitor~cough~ show up early yesterday, which also hurts me when it arrives. With both things AND how depressed I was feeling yesterday, I decided it was in my best interest to just wait until next week to do my weigh in.
Yesterday was a very bad day for me emotionally. I had very good reasons for being depressed. If you understood my poem from yesterday, then you already know why. If not, I don’t feel like outright saying it at the moment. I cried more than I did anything yesterday. Having depression and starting my period yesterday didn’t help things. I was down in the dumps majorly, and my whole body felt like a zombie. It sucked and I can feel the residuals from it still today, but things are a little better. Having said this, I did not ask for help or advice because people do the “compare” strategy. I, myself, use it so I know others do. Well, think of this situation…aren’t you lucky? Yea, yea…but another’s situation doesn’t change how you feel and what YOU feel is 100% real and you have a right to feel it, too. I didn’t want to hear it, honestly. And I didn’t want to answer questions on WHY I was feeling so depressed. While I knew some of the factors, I can’t explain deep depression to anyone who has never felt it. And I can’t be fixed when I am deeply depressed. You can’t cheer me up no matter how much you may think you can. Sometimes when I feel depressed, the best thing for me to do is just to deal with on my own. I know this seems completely unrelated to my weight loss, but this is sort of background to why I’m not posting a weight today.
After a week of getting back to healthy and by then, hopefully bidding adieu to my period, hopefully I will be in better spirits and the scale will have a good number to show! 🙂