Yep, I decided to skip a weigh in today due to having a full on “cheat” day Saturday when I celebrated my wedding anniversary with my husband.  I also had a ~cough~ unexpected visitor~cough~ show up early yesterday, which also hurts me when it arrives. With both things AND how depressed I was feeling yesterday, I decided it was in my best interest to just wait until next week to do my weigh in.

Yesterday was a very bad day for me emotionally.  I had very good reasons for being depressed.  If you understood my poem from yesterday, then you already know why.  If not, I don’t feel like outright saying it at the moment.  I cried more than I did anything yesterday.  Having depression and starting my period yesterday didn’t help things.  I was down in the dumps majorly, and my whole body felt like a zombie.  It sucked and I can feel the residuals from it still today, but things are a little better.  Having said this, I did not ask for help or advice because people do the “compare” strategy. I, myself, use it so I know others do.  Well, think of this situation…aren’t you lucky? Yea, yea…but another’s situation doesn’t change how you feel and what YOU feel is 100% real and you have a right to feel it, too.  I didn’t want to hear it, honestly.  And I didn’t want to answer questions on WHY I was feeling so depressed.  While I knew some of the factors, I can’t explain deep depression to anyone who has never felt it. And I can’t be fixed when I am deeply depressed.  You can’t cheer me up no matter how much you may think you can.  Sometimes when I  feel depressed, the best thing for me to do is just to deal with on my own.  I know this seems completely unrelated to my weight loss, but this is sort of background to why I’m not posting a weight today.  

After a week of getting back to healthy and by then, hopefully bidding adieu to my period, hopefully I will be in better spirits and the scale will have a good number to show! 🙂