The Slump has hit

It always does when I least expect it

Things are going fine

Not much to complain about

But Depression doesn’t get the memo.

It’s times like these

When I remember the past

Back when the slump was more permanent

People would ask, “What’s wrong?”

And I never had an answer

They never understood how I didn’t know

But I was telling the truth

Or at least the truth as I knew it.

How can I possibly explain to you what’s wrong

When I don’t even know myself?!

Don’t you realize I scream and berate myself constantly

About why I’m sad when there’s no reason to be?

Don’t you think I’m my own worst enemy right now?

How do you, who have never suffered depression,

Possibly expect to understand me?

How can YOU possibly GET me?!

Everything is NOT black and white

Everything does NOT have an answer

You can’t figure me out

You might as well stop trying.

When something is funny and I burst out into tears

That transcend from my laughter

I am as utterly confused

And in disbelief as you.

There’s no method to my madness

This isn’t an act

It’s the downs of depression

The bottom of my barrel.

Then there are those who try to offer solutions

Like what you suggest hasn’t already been tried before

Are you some magician

With a cure I haven’t heard?

Do you hold the power

I have long hoped for?

Or maybe you’re the naysayer

Who believes Depression isn’t real

How I envy you

For not having to feel what I feel.

You have no idea how lucky you are

I almost wish you were cursed with my slump

But then I wouldn’t wish it truly

On my worst enemy.

The Slump

Is when NOTHING

Can cheer you up

Your only wish is to be alone

And away from everyone,

Even those you love.

You go through life in a constant haze

Praying that no one

Will ask you

How your day

Was…..

~Sharon Hughes, 6/8/13

3 Comments

  1. I don’t have the answer, but I do get where you’re coming from 😦 All I can say is remember you’re not alone and hold on to the fact that you know it doesn’t last forever even though it might feel like it. Look after yourself, go easy on yourself. No need to yell at yourself, just accept it’s a slump and go hide in bed for as long as you can get away with! Hugs.

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