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{January 31, 2013}   Let’s Break the Ice

Ok, ok, I admit I didn’t know what to post about today so I got a little creative and looked online….I already answer 5 questions every Friday, but I thought it would be FUN for me to answer some today, too! 🙂

Since not everyone that reads my Blog may know me as well as others, I thought I could use this post for a kind of “Icebreaker” post by answering some Icebreaker Questions. If you are unsure of what “Icebreaker” Questions are, they are questions usually asked in a group, just for fun, to get to know each other. Hope you enjoy, whether you’ve known ME for awhile or are new to meeting me and my blog!

1.What’s your favorite room in the house and why?  The Bedroom! And NOT in a naughty way, so get your minds out of the gutter! One of my favorite spots to read is in bed and the DVR in the Bedroom is all mine! 😉
2.Tell how you are feeling today in the form of a weather report. (For example, partly cloudy, sunny with a chance for showers, etc.) Hmmm….Partly Cloudy with some Fog and chances of the Fog clearing later in the day and becoming Sunny 🙂
3.The greatest compliment I ever received was… “You inspired me” in regards to my dancing in a group as a plus size woman….It meant a lot to me to hear that I inspired someone that might have thought you had to be a size zero to get out there and dance but it’s also a great compliment anytime someone tells me I inspired them for whatever reason!
4.The gift I will never forget… is a little Angel figurine that came from a Dollar Store that my little niece Hannah gave me for Christmas one year when she was little bitty 🙂 It meant a lot because she didn’t have a lot of money so it was special to me that she spent some of her money on me.
5.If you were a car, what would you be and why? Well, first of all, I wouldn’t be a very happy camper cause a Car is not an exciting thing for me to be….If I’m being honest, I would probably be a Purple car(my favorite color) but an economical and safe, boring choice because even though choosing a fast convertible sounds fun…..that would NOT be me. I admit that I live a rather boring lifestyle and I’m NOT a risk taker
6.If they made a movie of your life, who would you want to play you? And would it be a comedy, a romantic-comedy, a drama, action or science fiction? My life would run across a lot of genres, a little comedy, a little romance, a little drama…not too much Action though and No Sci-Fi unless there’s something going on that I am out of the loop on! I’m not sure who would play me…..Melissa McCarthy would be hilarious, though AND she is a beautiful Plus Size woman! 🙂
7.If you could visit any place in the world where would you go and why? I want to go to Ireland! I’ve been to Wales and a teensy bit of England and I would LOVE to revisit them but something about Ireland sounds so magical to me! Oh, and I have a bit of Irish in my blood 🙂
8.What was your favorite food as a child? Do you eat it now? Macaroni and Cheese! I actually haven’t ate any of it in months because I am trying to eat healthier but I can promise that I WILL eat it sometime in the future, just rarely!
9.Share a quirky habit you have. How long have you had it? I just thought of one that might shock some people. When I sleep, I make sucking sounds like I am sucking on a bottle. LOL I’ve done this since I was a baby and I guess it must have come from falling asleep with a sippy cup. I can’t help it, although I pay for it cause sometimes I end up with blisters on the sides of my tongue from it. 😦 Luckily, my hubby thinks it’s cute!
10.Share a time when someone in your family did something that made you proud. I’m proud whenever any of my nieces or nephews accomplish something big. Most recently, my niece Grace won a Blue Ribbon for her Southdown Sheep and I was so proud of her for that!
11.Have you ever been told you look like someone famous? Who? No, I can’t remember ever being told I looked like someone famous BUT I have been told I looked like someone’s niece once LOL
12.What’s the worst thing you did as a little kid? (smeared cheese on the wall, accidentally called Japan, called one of your mom’s friends’ fat, inadvertently downloaded Pentagon files to your dad’s computer, etc.) LOL! I painted my whole number with Red Nail Polish and if that wasn’t bad enough, I also got it all over my sister’s vanity….it took my Mom forever to get it off me and you would THINK I learned my lesson, but NO! Another time, I painted myself all over with Black PERMANENT Marker! My Mom said I screamed and screamed as she scrubbed it all off me….Honestly, I don’t vividly remember these times so I’m glad I wasn’t traumatized or anything!
13.I really crack up when… I’m really sleepy….everything makes me laugh when I am really tired…well, at least at night when I have been up too long…if I get woken up early, I don’t laugh…I get grumpy THEN
14.What was your most memorable birthday? I’m going to say my 23rd? Hurricane Katrina hit ON my birthday and we lost power so I spent the day at home, in the dark…So it was the most memorable because of that BUT I also remember my sister calling us to tell me Happy Birthday and my little nephew, about 3 at the time, told me “Happy Birday!” and that just made everything all better! 🙂

Yea…14 is a strange number to end it on, but there you go! I am strange so why not? 🙂

To play along, just answer the following three (3) questions…

• What are you currently reading?
• What did you recently finish reading?
• What do you think you’ll read next?

What are you currently reading? “Moon Spun” by Marilee Brothers #3 in the Unbidden Magic Series

What did you recently finish reading? “Moonstone” and “Moon Rise”(Unbidden Magic, #1 and #2) by Marilee Brothers

“This Book is full of spiders: Seriously, Dude, don’t touch it!” by David Wong

“Sapphire Eyes” (Short story) by Kimberly Kinrade

What do you think you’ll read next? “Shadow Moon” and “Midnight Moon (Books 4 and 5 in the Unbidden Magic Series) by Marilee Brothers and at some point “Seduced by Innocence” (Book 1 in the Seduced Saga) by Kimberly Kinrade

{January 29, 2013}   “Thunderstorm Days” A Poem

I love days like today

Where the weather is cool and I can smell rain in the air.

A sense of anticipation lingers

As I watch the treetops swaying in the wind.

Side to side they shimmy

As if they are dancing the tango,

The thunder calls out the beat

And they move in step to its call.

The sun hides away temporarily searching for drier lands

And the sky darkens before the rain seeks its entrance

To the World’s stage it arrives and drenches us with its presence

Soaking us through with its touch, covering our bodies with its very being

Tap, tap, tapping on the windows and drum, drum, drumming on the pipes,

It envelops the very stage that gives it life.

The thunder booms down its loud bass beat

While the lightning adds its deadly light show

The thunderstorm has become Nature’s own play

With lights, sound and special effects

While the rain pounds away, we are reminded of our roles

As players in nature

And small actors in this little scene of many in Life.

Just like us, the rain is here for a time

And then gone…..

But in its absence, there is always evidence of its existence.

And in its return

There is always something missing that has gone before.

I love days like these

When the thunderstorms come

Days like these

Remind me to

Enjoy life.

-Sharon Hughes

*This was written spur of the moment today right before a thunderstorm is headed this way. It just popped in my head as I typed. I haven’t wrote a poem in awhile so hopefully you like this one!*

{January 28, 2013}   At a Standstill

No pounds came off this past week….BUT on the bright side, no pound were added! So I’m still at 303…..:(

I think this might be the first time since I started that I haven’t had any loss in a week and it IS a bummer, I have to say. I’m not giving up though, I KNEW it was bound to happen at one point. Just got to push through and keep going! Hopefully next week, I’ll go back to shaving off a pound or two a week, at the least!

Never giving up! I went to the doctor today for my weight check and since I haven’t seen HIM since three weeks ago, all he noticed was a drop of 8 pounds since then and he was really proud of me. It feels very rewarding when people notice my weight loss and tell me they are proud of me. Like I have said before, when YOU’RE the one losing, sometimes you don’t notice as much because you live with yourself ALL the time. It’s hard to notice the changes except for in how you feel and how your clothes fit. Hearing that others SEE a change makes me feel that I AM making a difference and I AM doing well. Of course, it’s not about looking better cause I weigh less…it’s about me feeling healthier, less depressed and what my doctor said today when he commented on how I get around better. I walk with a lot more confidence and it’s easier to walk now that I’m not so close to 400. 😦 I’m embarrassed I ever allowed myself to get to that point but I have to remind myself that it wasn’t because of laziness or pigging out that I got there. It was based on not eating as healthy as I should combined with a medical disorder and depression along with a loss of hope. I still don’t know what got me to have hope again. I know having a blogger friend who was changing her life inspired me but even with the inspiration, it took awhile for me to be in the right frame of mind to go for it. I am SO thankful that I found hope, though and there’s no turning back now. As much as unhealthy food might taste wonderful at the moment, Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels! It’s just no longer worth it to me to eat unhealthy food all the time. Once in awhile is fine but eating healthy 99% of the time makes my body feel better which in turn keeps me from being depressed ALL the time. It’s so worth it and it’s about so much more than the numbers of what I weigh and the size I wear. It’s about being healthy. 🙂

See you next week for the next update!

{January 27, 2013}   Second Spotlight Sunday of 2013!


Welcome to my Spotlight Sunday! Every Sunday I put someONE or someTHING I love IN the Spotlight!

Anyone is welcome to use the idea on their own blog and spotlight whoever or whatever THEY choose, but if you do, please use my lovely graphic that my friend made somewhere in your post to show that the idea came from here! And I would love it if you left the link in my comments, so I could go check out what YOU spotlighted!

Today, I am putting Mrs. Kimberly Karpov-Kinrade in the Spotlight! 🙂 On her books, she goes by Kimberly Kinrade, though!

I first learned of Author Kimberly Kinrade through Pixel of Ink which showcases free and very inexpensive Ebooks on Amazon. The first book of hers I read was, “Forbidden Mind” and I fell in love with it and wanted to read the next two in the trilogy but I try to not pay for many of my Ebooks, if possible. Months later and Vickie Ann of Innovative Online Book Tours was looking for people to read Ebooks for free in exchange for Amazon Reviews. If you started reading a book and didn’t like it, you could give up on it and request another so I didn’t have to worry about drudging through something I didn’t like. (So far, I haven’t had that problem once, by the way!)

I was overjoyed when I saw she had Mrs. Kinrade’s “Forbidden Trilogy” as review books and I kindly asked to read them first. I’m so thankful for the chance I had to read both of them because I have now fallen in love with not only the trilogy but also her writing, in general! I HAVE to recommend this Trilogy to everyone who loved “The Hunger Games”. I truly believe this trilogy was the best thing I have read since them and I anxiously await a Movie version of it someday!

Since reading her “Forbidden Trilogy”, I have had a chance to read 2 short stories and a Novella by her. All three of these I won, along with the others who attended her online launch party for the Omnibus Edition of the “Forbidden Trilogy”. The two short stories were “Eye of Newt” and “Son of Destiny“, both of which I liked and am hoping for a full storyline evolving from soon. The Novella, “Bits of you and pieces of me” was phenomenal! It was full of short stories and poems of love, heartwrenching moments of abuse and loss, followed by a rejuvenation and belief in love again. It was SO different from the others but so well written that I just adored it!

She also has a Kid’s series out called “The Three Lost Kids” which I haven’t read but it looks like a fun read for both young and older kiddos! This series just released its 6th book, I believe and is still a continuing series!

Her most recent release is a short story called, “Sapphire Eyes” and is NOT for kids! It’s an Erotic story and though I haven’t read it yet, from what I have heard, it’s pretty steamy! It’s also currently .99 on Amazon if anyone wants to check it out! 🙂 It’s definitely on MY To Read list!

Her next book will be released this coming Monday…which is…tomorrow and it’s going to be Book One in a 5 book series in the New Adult Romance/Paranormal Category. I’m usually not a big fan of Romance, but between the Paranormal aspect and Mrs. Kinrade’s great writing, this is definitely the exception to my rule! Book One is called, “Seduced by Innocence” and I’m very excited about its release and doubly so because on the first day of its release, the price will be knocked down from $3.99 on Amazon to…$1.99! I will DEFINITELY be using my Amazon Card to purchase this!

If you’re reading this and think you might be interested in this author’s books, I have a special invite for you! Right now, She is celebrating a second week of her Launch Party for “Seduced by Innocence” on Facebook and I know she would love for you to join her party!  Come join, chat with other fans of this author and enter for giveaways and cool swag! Just for entering last time, I had the privilege of not only winning the 2 short stories and novella by her BUT I also got a signed postcard from her of one of the main characters of the “Forbidden Trilogy”! She is such a sweet, giving person and it’s so much fun to not only be able to read great books by an author you admire but to also be able to chat with her on Facebook and feel like she cares about her fans? An amazing thing, indeed!

{January 26, 2013}   Family of Bloggers Award!

blogfamilyIt’s been so long since anyone has given me an award on my blog that I was pleasantly surprised when I was nominated by Nancy Barnes over at 

Now that I have accepted this lovely award, there are some things I am required to do!

First, I must tell the attributes I bring to the family of bloggers!

F=Funny posts (I hope some of my posts make others laugh!)

A=An Abundance of Honesty(My blog is the REAL me and I’m very open on here in order to let others know who I really am and hopefully relate!)

M=Marriage Tales! (As a married woman of 3 1/2 years who writes about her life, stories of matrimonial bliss and not so bliss are never far away!)

I=Intelligent Thought (I’m kind of aiming high here but I hope SOME of my posts make people think)

L=Literature (I’m not only a Writer, I’m a Reader and I share my love of it with everyone!)

Y=Yawning Unworthy Posts (I sincerely hope none of my posts EVER make people yawn!)

Now I am nominating these 4 people for this award. These are 4 people that I have been following for awhile and though, I’m not as on top of reading all their posts as I ONCE was, I think they are great candidates of this award and I hope they accept it!

#1-I Shall Be a Toad-I nominate this blogger because she’s not afraid to think differently than everybody else and every family needs an outside of the box thinker!

#2-Perfecting Motherhood-I nominate this blogger because of her talents in not only writing but also photography..and well, she also writes about motherhood and every family needs a mother, right?

#3-Growing younger each day-I nominate THIS blogger because as much as I have gotten behind on her blog, she still pops in regularly to cheer me on in my weight loss journey! Constant encouragement and a young soul are great things for a family!

#4-The Shyness Project-I nominate this blogger for her bravery in overcoming shyness so much since the moment I first started and THEN regularly read her blog. Bravery is important for a family AND she could also teach everyone to swing dance! 🙂

If they choose to accept this award, there are 4 things they must do:

1) Pay credit to the one who nominated you.

2) Place a link to the one who nominated you on your awards page. (I don’t have an awards page but I guess I will make one. I think you could add them to your blogroll instead but I don’t have one of those either LOL)

3.) Use the anagram of the word “FAMILY” to tell us the attributes YOU bring to the family of bloggers!

4) Nominate at least 4 other people to be in your family of bloggers and notify them of their nomination.

And…that’s all, folks! 🙂

*Thanks again to Nancy Barnes for nominating me!*


As always, you may answer these questions in your own post or in the comments section!

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On to the questions!

1. Do you embrace or dread snow/cold weather days? Our cold weather days in THIS part of Texas are maybe 30’s, 40’s and very rarely snow so I embrace them. I LOVE colder weather because I hate the heat and sweating LOL….I love weather where I HAVE to wear a jacket and it still feels a little chilly but not too much. 50’s are my favorite temp! 🙂

2. Which game show or reality show could you totally win? I could totally win on “Don’t forget the lyrics”….as long as there wasn’t all Country Music LOL and I think I could do very well on “Wheel of Fortune”…I would LOVE to go on that show!

3. What is your preferred climate? 50’s and 60’s with a little wind…..and if I am stuck inside all day, I actually love Rain cause it makes for some great sleep and good reading weather as well!

4. What do you buy every time you walk into the grocery store, no matter what? There’s not really anything I buy every trip..Lately, I would say Pineapple cause that’s a pretty regular thing I buy. I love Pineapple! 🙂 Spinach is a regular thing cause I buy it fresh and it doesn’t last long and Flavored Drink Mixes for my Water!

5. If you see a spider/bug in the house, are you brave enough to kill it, or do you call for your hubby? Unless the spider was a Black Widow and it’s somewhere I can’t reach, I would kill the spider….I’m not TOO afraid of them but I don’t want them crawling on me, of course! If it’s a roach, especially a BIG one, I call for my hubby and he can always tell! “Baby, come here! Hurry! It’s an emergency!” and he replies with, “Where is it?” LOL





{January 24, 2013}   What Came from No Ideas….

I really believe that in moments where you don’t know what to do, once you get over that fear of worrying about it, clarity begins. For instance, right now, as much as I promise myself to be more organized and have topics and posts picked out days ahead of time…it NEVER works! At least not for a very long period of time. For awhile, the ideas flow and I have it all figured out but just like in life, you CAN’T have it all figured out forever. Sometimes you run out of ideas and you rack your brain then maybe you get lucky and an idea emerges, and sometimes you don’t…it’s like a coin toss.

Today, I sat here and thought hard of a topic for a bit then I just told myself, Forget it! and in that moment of non worry, I just cleared my mind and thought about whatever came without pressuring it. What came to my mind was a deep love for my blog and how I always seem to replace what I really want with close substitutes. I love to write and people suggest different jobs that would involve that and they all sound nice but if I were really honest, NONE of them are what my dream really is for myself now. If I could make a living as a blogger, I would be extraordinarily happy. Not just any blog, but a blog just like this one….maybe even THIS blog itself. I don’t want to write designated articles that are assigned to me, I don’t really want to edit other’s works and while reviews are fun, they just don’t make me giddy inside the way I feel when I post here everyday. I want to get paid to write what I want whether that be stories, poems or just about my own life in my own words. Sort of like Carrie in “Sex and the City” and how she writes about life in the city based on her own experiences. THAT would be amazing!

Right now, if you looked at my job on Facebook, you would see Unpaid Blog Writer. I love the sound of that title even though the rewards have never been monetary. Blogging, especially when I do personal pieces, is like a release of stress from within me that pours forth from my fingertips and out through the Internet. Currently, I try to sell Jewelry Candles for some money and while I believe in the product I sell….seeing “Blog Writer” as my title is just about the best title I could picture myself having by my name except for maybe “Mother” one day!

I guess I will have to keep dreaming AND blogging….but I can still wish, right? Maybe someday……Anything is possible!

To play along, just answer the following three (3) questions…

• What are you currently reading?
• What did you recently finish reading?
• What do you think you’ll read next?

What are you currently reading? “Moonstone” by Marilee Brothers #1 in the Unbidden Magic Series

What did you recently finish reading? “Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children(Miss Peregrine, #1) by Ransom Riggs

What do you think you’ll read next? “Moon Rise”(Unbidden Magic Series #2) and “The Idiot Girl and the Flaming Tantrum of Death: Reflections on Revenge, Germophobia, and Laser Hair Removal” by Laurie Notaro

People can be aggravating! For me, I always seem to realize just HOW much so when I am attempting to make any change in my own life. I’m sure you know the types of people I’m referring to…The Naysayers, The Controllers, The Know-it-Alls,The Tempters,etc. I’m sure I could come up with a long list!

If you’ve read my blog since I started consistently blogging in 2011, you may have noticed I’ve changed quite a bit and I’m STILL changing, hopefully for the better. I’ve had an issue with depression since my late teens(at least that’s when it was diagnosed) and since almost a year ago, I have been implementing changes towards becoming a more positive minded person who doesn’t negative thinking hold me back. I made a little bit of progress at first, but it wasn’t really until I decided to do a lifestyle change that I really felt changed.

I don’t think losing weight in and of itself has helped the depression as much as just eating healthier has. I believe that a lot of what we eat DOES affect your mood and even before I started losing, I could tell that I just felt happier. My biggest issue now is STAYING that way is others, though.

How? Let me explain! First of all, I am NOT on a diet. If you would like to call a different way of eating a diet, you MAY, but I have discovered that telling myself that I am dieting doesn’t work. It’s a mind thing. The word “Diet” just feels temporary which makes the act of losing weight on a diet temporary and then you have this Yo-yo thing where you’re going back and forth and I’m just plain sick of that. So, 6 months ago, I embarked on a plan for a lifestyle change, whereby I would look at food differently for not just a short term, but forever. Yes, my doctor put me on a “diet” plan with rules but I go by his plan as a lifestyle for me, not as a diet. Whether or not you think it’s the same thing is up to you. The only thing that matters to me is how I view things and everyone is different. 6 months in, I consider myself not on a diet, not on a plan, but I like to say the way you eat is now my lifestyle. “Are you on a diet, Sharon?” “No, I just live a healthier lifestyle than I did 6 months ago!”

It works for me….but everyone else doesn’t always understand my way of thinking and they tend to say things that aggravate me. Isn’t that what people do? First, I have the Naysayers. The people who indirectly hint that things will go awry eventually. The ones who want to make sure I know that it IS a diet whether I choose to call it that or not. Thankfully, I don’t have too many of THOSE in my life. People like that I try to get rid of because they’re no good for me.

Controllers…..I definitely have those! Harder to dispose of cause I have some in my family. These are the ones who I hear in the background asking if I’m allowed to eat something on my plate. The ones who ask if certain things are on my “diet”…ugh, THAT word again! Controllers is what I call this type because whether they are directly controlling or not, they still make me second guess everything I’m doing and feel like I have to explain every single bite I eat! I have ate healthier for 6 months and I have lost a total of 65 pounds. I am serious about how I eat now and I don’t need others telling me what or not to eat…unless you’re my doctor, butt out! I have been eating this way long enough now that I know what is good and what is NOT for me, and whether others like it or not, I also refuse to let ANY food be considered BAD food and I have decided to not tell myself that I can’t have any type of food, I just simply ask myself if I really want it or not. Yes, I’m also reading a book that gives this advice, but I think it also makes perfect sense! Whenever you tell yourself that something is completely OFF limits, you crave it more because you think you can’t have it! For example, I have never been a big sweets eater and usually only like chocolate on certain “days” of the month LOL…when I told myself I could ONLY eat it then, I started craving it all the time! What the heck? But since I have allowed myself to eat a little bit of Dark Chocolate if I REALLY want it, I don’t crave it as much. Another little mind trick….So when people ask me, “Can you eat that?” “Yes, I can eat anything I want, but I don’t WANT that because it’s not healthy and not worth it to me!”

The Know-it-alls? I’m pretty much over them…..The ones who have been there, done that and try to tell me how I need to do things for the best outcome and their way is the best. Like I said earlier, everyone is different. I have found a good way that works for me and if your way works for you, fine….Let me do it my way, you do it yours!

Last, but not least, The Tempters! Those evil sneaky people who try to talk you into eating something you don’t really want or need…..~coughs~ My hubby!

I admit I HAVE given in some when he has tempted me, but I refuse to call it cheating….It’s NOT a diet, so I’m not cheating on a healthier lifestyle! I just decided to eat a little something every once in awhile that didn’t really fit my lifestyle…..kind of like when a girly girl who likes to stay home and read decides to go camping for a couple days? I had a taste of another lifestyle. Back when I was younger and DID go camping, what was the outcome? I realized how much I really disliked it and went back to my old lifestyle. Well, after having a bit of a taste of something unhealthy, I tend to feel a mood change, not of guilt, but that this unhealthy food is NOT making me feel as great as the healthy stuff did. So I then decide it’s back to the old lifestyle…which is now the new….

Everybody needs to try other things every once in awhile to remind them of this, right? I KNOW I will always eat a little unhealthy every once in awhile, but THIS time, I feel more assured than ever that I will return to eating healthy because for once, I have changed the way my mind thinks and views food and I’m slowly but surely getting to that place where I learn to use food to make me full in my stomach and NOT to feel happy or to just have something to do. I’m learning to give food the proper place in my life. I’m learning this on my own and I’d kindly appreciate the ones in my life to cheer me on, encourage me, and be by my side instead of putting me down, tempting me, or trying to control me.

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