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{July 27, 2012}   Week One Results

I am so excited to tell everyone following the “Project Healthier Me” journey with me that I have great news! I weighed myself this morning(like I said I would) and I have definitely lost more than I expected this first week! 🙂 My first week’s weight loss is….drum roll, please….SIX pounds! YAY!

I was trying to build up a little suspense there, so how did I do? From 368 down to 362! Woo! I’ll be so excited to get below that 360 mark because I honestly haven’t been under it in over a year. 😦 I feel so close and I know I can do this!

Yesterday, I did my first beginner’s 20 minute class of Zumba on the Wii and I did have to take a short 1-2 minute break between the long routines for some water BUT I made it through! I can definitely feel the soreness in my calves from a good workout, so different from a pain feeling that I felt before. It feels nice to dance again, even if just for a bit. I’m hoping to work up to where I can sign up for real Zumba classes in our area. Right now, I would probably collapse at the beginning, but I know I can get to where I will be able to keep up with every one else. Just got to take it one day at a time! That’s my new motto for myself.

So what else to report on? Yesterday was my first day on this plan that I actually felt true hunger pains. Before, it was more of this mental hunger feeling where I’m just thinking, “I wish I had something to snack on right now” or “This kind of food sounds good right no” but my stomach wasn’t actually growling at me saying it was hungry, you know? Yesterday, my stomach growled at lunch time and growled again when it was dinner time so I KNEW my body actually needed food instead of just this mental feeling of WANTING to eat without my body needing it. Mentally wanting food is hard to deny because it’s in your mind and boy, do I know how powerful that can be with depression. Your mind can fight with you so hard BUT miraculously I have so far been able to overcome it. It hasn’t been easy. There has been times where I have been reading or watching TV and the thought of food is taking over my thinking and I can barely focus on anything else. Sometimes I wish I had a magic wand to turn it off!

Thankfully, I have found this new found power to fight it, though. I have no clue why I never felt this before, but all I know is it’s here now and I have this strong willpower I didn’t know I had. I’m looking towards the future and forgetting my past failures and I see victory. My mindset is new and improved and I feel like this new girl that never even was depressed in her past. I’m feeling SO positive and again, I thank everyone who is supporting me because I know I wouldn’t feel this way without YOU!

6 pounds down, 44 to go until Christmas! I CAN DO IT! ONE DAY AT A TIME!



Welcome!

As always, you may answer these questions in your own post or in the comments section!

This 5 Question Friday was brought to you by:

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1. What is the funniest thing you saw on Facebook/twitter this week?
I can’t think of one specific thing, I am always seeing funny sayings and funny pictures posted by everyone….I just saw a shirt that said, “I’ve never met a book I wouldn’t take to bed” and I thought that was both clever and pretty funny 🙂 I kind of want that shirt now!
2. What is your favorite Olympic event? In Summer, it’s most definitely Gymnastics, both women’s, men’s and the rhythmic(if they do that) I am so looking forward to that!

In Winter, I enjoy all the Figure Skating, both Individual, Pairs AND Ice Dancing 🙂

3. Do your kids do chores around the house? If so, what are they and how old are the children? Do they get paid for them? No kids yet, but when I do, I would probably give them chores from the time they are able to do them….just give the smaller ones little tasks they can do and progressively harder tasks as they age. Mommies don’t exactly get paid for doing housework so I think a reasonable amount of chores for kids doesn’t need payment, but if your kid goes above and beyond what they are asked, I don’t see anything wrong with giving them some sort of reward.

4. If you get bad service/food do you complain or keep quiet?
I’m bad about being quiet cause I hate to offend people and I especially hate saying something if they are going to still be bringing food out, cause I am always paranoid they will put something in my food!

5. If you could pick ONE frivolous item for your home, what would it be? (massive room sized closet? swimming pool? greenhouse? etc…) Well, I live in an apartment so although I would love to say my very own private swimming pool, that would be so unrealistic……Right now, I would love to have a bigger fridge with more freezer space and an ice maker….cause I feel our apt. one is so small





I just want to let those that are following my weight loss and becoming healthier journey that I am STILl going strong, day 6 and I have managed to get close to 1200 calories everyday without going over and no more than 30 grams of carbs per meal, just like my doctor prescribed!

So far, I have noticed my stomach is giving me less problems and I am less sore in my muscles than before when I would walk around a bit. I have also noticed that these past six days have been so much happier and less depressed feeling for me. I have so much hope and joy that I forgot I was capable of and I almost feel like the old me who was so much more full of life. I have NOT weighed since last Saturday when I saw no change on the scale. I decided for this first week to wait until this Friday to weigh. It’s really hard because I am impatient but I want to give my body time to show changes and my metabolism hopefully to kick in. There has been only a few times where I have felt down but I have been able to quickly get those thoughts out of my head.

I am so looking forward to all the changes this journey will bring me through and I am very optimistic that although the process is hard, it will be worth it in the long run. Part of this new found hope I believe comes from all this support I have received from people, both close to me and not as close. It means so much to know people care and WANT you to succeed. Knowing all of you truly are behind me through this has given me what I need to start really believing in myself again. I CAN DO IT!

I will let you know my first weight check in on Friday. I would LOVE to see a big number, but I am trying to keep myself realistic and if I can even see a 2-3 pound weight loss than I will be ecstatic.



I have now completed my 100 books in 2012! Which means I will be adding 50 to my limit, but still keep track of when I finished the 100! 🙂

To play along, just answer the following three (3) questions…

• What are you currently reading?
• What did you recently finish reading?
• What do you think you’ll read next?

What are you currently reading? “Don’t shoot, I’m the Avon Lady” by Birdie Jaworski

What did you recently finish reading?  “The Walking Dead: Rise of the Governor” by Robert Kirkman and Jay Bonansinga

“The Killer of Little Shepherds: A True Crime Story and the Birth of Forensic Science” by Douglas Starr

What do you think you’ll read next? “The Wretched of Muirwood” by Jeff Wheeler…The idea of only the privileged being allowed to read intrigues me and this is supposed to be what this book is about 🙂



First of all, the 19th was mine and my husband’s anniversary. It was a good one and I am excited for many more! We had a gift card to Olive Garden but we didn’t end up eating there. Right as we got there and walked in, the power went out! I was actually surprised to see my reaction was laughter about the situation. All the restaurants and stores in that area had a power outage too, so we just decided on a whim to head for another town close by and try an Italian restaurant we had been dying to try for the first time. Right as we got into the restaurant, we found out the power in Olive Garden had JUST come back on. It seemed like fate to me. The other restaurant, called Antipasta’s was awesome, had delicious food and ended up being cheaper than Olive Garden would have been (without a gift card) so it was well worth the drive.

Yesterday was the first day of my new healthier life. It was hard but I feel like I have got this new found motivation I didn’t even think I had in me. Between meals, me and my husband went to play Mini Golf (which I hadn’t played in years). It was so much fun, but I am thankful there were benches nearby and we brought big bottles of water with us! After bending down so much to get the ball, my back was yelling at me and I was feeling really out of shape. I think more than fatigue, I just had to rest frequently due to feeling faint and my hands shaking, which I KNOW had to be due to blood sugar. I am NOT diabetic at the moment, I just had blood work done last week, but it runs in my family and my dad is hypoglycemic so I think I might have to figure out exactly HOW to best eat to keep my blood sugar from getting too low, you know? Before, unless I went hours without eating, it was never much of an issue because I was eating a lot of carbs that were probably fueling me with bad glucose? Now I am eating more fruits and veggies versus bread and pasta, but maybe I am not getting enough. This is kind of new to me, so I think I am just going to have to again, take it day by day and figure it out.

Yesterday as I was eating fat free yogurt for breakfast and not exactly digging it, I started to say something positive I wanted before each bite. For example, “I want to be healthier”, “I want to feel better”, etc. and before you know it, I was finished and found a LOT of inspiration for losing weight. I have decided to make short term goals and long term goals to aspire to. My first short term goal is to lose 50 pounds by Christmas but my real incentive there is to fit into my dress I wore for engagement pictures by Christmas. I was about 50 pounds lighter then and I would really love to fit that dress again! So now I have a pound goal but also a visual goal to aspire to and I really feel like it is certainly possible!

My first long term goal doesn’t have a “pounds” attached to it, but it’s something I want to accomplish by May. A couple years ago, when my niece Sara graduated, I was unable to sit further down in the stadium with the rest of my family because my butt was too big for the chairs. Therefore, me and my husband sat at the top in folding chairs. It really made me sad, though I just laughed it off about “my big butt”. This May, my niece Grace will be graduating high school at the same place and I want so badly to sit with my family this time. I’m tired of having to find somewhere to sit and sitting off by myself, feeling like a loner. I feel like I can also conceivably make this goal and I can already see the excitement on my face when I get there!

On another note, I am suspending my “12 in ’12” challenge because I feel like I already have one big challenge I am committing to, that is frankly, a lifetime challenge. Having a thyroid disorder means even after losing all the weight, I will STILL have to stick to a healthy lifestyle to avoid going back. I have lost a good bit before and I gave up when I got stuck….and now I am right back where I was and then some. I don’t want to go down the same path again. I have added two weight loss tickers on the side of my blog, one with my short term goal and one to just show my progress throughout my whole journey. I will keep updating you at least once a week and I already appreciate all the tips, advice, support and kind words that have come my way!



Welcome!

As always, you may answer these questions in your own post or in the comments section!

This 5 Question Friday was brought to you by:

On to the questions!

1} What do you call them- flip flops, sandals, thongs, or slippers?
This has been asked before! They are flip flops if they go through the toes AND sandals if not…..Thongs are underwear, not shoes! LOL…and Slippers are what you wear around the house…like bedroom slippers! or in the case of Cinderella, a glass high heel?

2} Are you a “my kids can do no wrong” kind of mom or a “Johnny punched you? Well what did you do to him first?!” kind of mom?
I’m not a mom yet, but I would like to be the in the middle kind….all kids CAN do wrong but unless one of my future kids is a big troublemaker, I wouldn’t want to just always assume it was their fault either….I think it would be better to ask, “Ok, tell me from the beginning what happened, who hit who first, why, etc.?”

3} Would you confront a good friend that looked/looks down on your husband/significant other?  Yea, of course I would! I by no means think my husband is perfect, but if you’re a good friend of mine, you need to not only accept ME but also my husband. You don’t have to like everything he says or does or always agree with him, but you HAVE to accept him….

4} Biggest pet peeve? The one that pops up right now happened just today….my husband gets dressed a LOT quicker than me and then he will ask if I am ready yet, but then when I AM ready, it’s “Where’s my shoes?” then “Where are the keys?” followed by “Where’s my wallet?” and I am like, “Seriously, all the time you were impatiently waiting on me, you could have been finding everything and sitting READY to go.” UGH! LOL…Men!

Also, I hate when someone clears their throats loudly around me…….ugh!

5} What’s your favorite take out meal?  Pasta…but alas, I have to say adieu to it for awhile…even the whole wheat kind has too many carbs at the moment, BUT it’s ok….it’s going to be worth it! 🙂





{July 19, 2012}   Third Year’s a Charm!

Happy Three Year Anniversary to my Husband! It has been three long roller coaster years, but well worth it!

On this day, I think back to not three, but four years ago on this day. Four years ago, I was awakened by a phone call. It was my then boyfriend(later husband) calling me to ask me out on a picnic. It registered in my mind that it was odd for him to be so spontaneous but we had been dating for almost 8 months at the time, I was hopelessly in love and I thought it was just the sweetest thing. A little tingle in the back of my mind wished for a proposal on that day or some day in the near future, but I honestly didn’t have much expectation of one.

You see, Chad and me had already talked about the idea of getting married someday, but we had also talked about the fact that he was broke and engagement rings were expensive. Seeing as we had only been together 8 months, I was fine with waiting because I knew in my heart it was going to happen eventually.

So, I got ready for him to pick me up and I told my parents(who I still lived with) where I was off to and they knew. Chad had called and asked if he could take me out on a picnic. This did seem strange to me, cause he didn’t usually do that. I met him and he showed me a mix CD he made for me with romantic love songs and an “I love you, Sharon” written on top. We listened to the CD as we rode to the park and I found the idea of a mix CD and a surprise picnic very romantic. We got to the park and he pulled out a rotisserrie chicken with rolls and potato salad. For the drinks, we had grape juice in champagne glasses. (Yes, I still have both THOSE glasses AND my wedding ones) The weather was wonderful, bright and sunny and we had our own little picnic table off by itself where you could see others, but we weren’t bothered by anything. He told me during our meal that he had got me this video game I had really wanted at the time(for the life of me, I can’t remember the name of it now) and he was going to get it out of the trunk after we ate. So I was anxious about that and admittedly, there WAS a small part of me that hoped there was something else for me in that trunk. We finished our meal and he went to get the “Surprise” and I heard him lifting the trunk and he told me to close my eyes. I believe I even said, “Why do I have to close my eyes? I know what it is!” but I humored him. I heard him walk up behind me and then he told me to open my eyes, so I did and I turned around to see him on his knees, with a ring case open to show a beautiful ring. I heard the words, “Will you marry me?” and I quickly responded in the affirmative as he slipped the ring on to my finger. I think I was in shock more than wanting to cry. I even asked him how he was able to afford a ring. It turned out his mom gave him his great grandma’s ring to give to me. Apparently, Chad was his great grandma’s favorite when he was alive and Chad’s mom liked me enough to allow him to give the ring to me. I felt this incredible feeling of happiness surge through me and I also felt pretty special that his mom thought well enough of me to let Chad give me that ring. I still remember feeling so giddy and excited and wanting to scream out to the whole world that I was engaged.

My parents already knew. He had asked their permission when he talked to them about the picnic. His parents knew because he had mentioned not being able to afford a ring but wanted to propose when his mom offered his great grandma’s ring. BUT there were other family members to tell AND friends and I sure enjoyed letting everyone know. I was so excited and I definitely wasn’t prepared to put a date out there yet. Everyone wanted to know the date and I was like, “I just got engaged, give me time here”. And I did take some time to really think about it. I knew I wanted at least a year or close to it because I wanted to make sure that it was the right decision and I didn’t want to rush. I also wanted time to plan as close to my dream wedding as I could afford. After much consideration, I decided why not the same day as I got engaged, but a year later!

Turns out that day was perfect even if it was on a Sunday. When I started looking at venues, I knew I wanted it to be in the afternoon so we could just do cake and save the expense of fun…3:00 sounded like the best to me and I needed affordable. I also had the dream vision of a castle in my head but in Texas? Well….shortly through looking at venues online, I found a castle within an hour of me, they had the date I wanted available, but not many other July dates around it. It just happened to be my lucky fortune that the day I wanted it was the day you HAD to have it for the least expensive package and it HAD to be at 3 p.m. AND the package I picked had recently been stopped BUT she accidentally gave me the wrong papers so I got to get that package anyways! It really felt like everything was working out perfect.

Today, it is 4 years since the day he proposed and 3 years since we said ” I do”. I am hoping these next few years will be full of many more happy memories.

I am going to be doing a weekly or bi-weekly post about love and/or marriage, just talking about married life and love and things I have learned and discovered in my short 3 years of marriage. I hope everyone will enjoy it, so stay tuned! The first post will be coming soon! 🙂



I went to the doctor today for a checkup and to ask him some questions and I was faced once again with what I always know will come up: my weight. Even just short term tasks leave me in pain in my muscles and joints and basically, my body is telling me that it’s breaking down on me. That’s what my doctor heard in my words and I believe him. Anybody who is obese and knows it KNOWS their bodies are in bad shape. I’ve known it for years and in the past, I have even took huge steps to change things. If you read my blog last year, you might have even read about how I lost a ton of weight and then was stuck for a long period of time. I KNOW that this is the reason I lost hope and pretty much gave up. I have tried for a long time to find hope again because I know that I can’t possibly change my life if I don’t believe I can.

Today, my doctor told me to start a 1200 calorie a day diet with 3 small meals, NO snacking and only 30 mg of carbs per meal…..It didn’t seem TOO bad until I realized how much carbs are in everything, even drinks!  My doctor has told me to keep a food journal and come in every 2 weeks, for free, for a weigh in and he will look through my food journal and try to help me. Just a short five minute appointment and it’s MY choice whether to do so or not, but the offer is there if I want help. As drastic as it sounded to me, I found myself thinking, “Yea, I think I could try it” and then at lunch, I told my mom, “I’m going to try it, but I just don’t think it will work”. Her response? “That’s a defeatist attitude”. And she would be right….it’s all I have ever had since the time before I got stuck and could no longer lose weight. To be honest with myself, I tend to have a defeatist attitude with a lot of things in my life. I tell myself over and over again that certain good things are never going to happen and let’s face it, I can’t get disappointed if I didn’t believe it in the first place, right?

The problem with a defeatist attitude is you’re setting yourself up for failure. It’s one thing to be realistic with myself, but quite another to be self deprecating and doubt myself. I almost think my attitude is some sort of protection from being hurt by failure.

So tomorrow is my anniversary and we have a gift card to Olive Garden that I am going to enjoy, but Friday I am starting this plan. I refuse to call it a diet, I’ve always hated that word and partly because it has the word “die” in it….maybe cause you feel you’re going to die doing it! It’s a new way of eating to live instead of living to eat….those were my doctor’s words. I am going to wholeheartedly try to stick with the plan and see what happens while fighting every day(or every minute) to not have a defeatist attitude. I am not lying when I say this is going to be one of the hardest things I have ever done.

I am committed through my blog to this challenge, yes, I’m going to go for it and call it a challenge….let’s see, Project Healthier Me or something of that sort! When I committed to blogging every day for a year, I was able to do it because I had committed publicly to it. I am sincerely hoping that by committing to eating healthier and really trying to lose weight through my blog, I will have the strength to do this too! I know I have many friends and family that can stick by me and I am soooo going to need the words of encouragement. Anyone who has tried to lose a lot of weight knows how hard it is and also, how lonely you can feel if no one is pushing you. So push me, people! I need help to stay committed!

And now, I am going to do something incredibly hard for me and let my weight be known…..AH! I have skinny friends who wouldn’t dare tell their weight, so this is hard but I really want to just let everything out there and get motivated to do this. As of my doctor’s appointment, I weigh 368 pounds….: ( Yes, I know..it’s bad. Almost 29, 5’5″ and just way too much weight. Putting that number out there may cause me to get some bad comments and even made fun of, but I sincerely hope my loyal readers will back me on wanting to change my life for the better and not just be hung up on the number. There isn’t any bad comment someone can say that isn’t anything I haven’t heard in my life or even thought about myself, believe me. If you can’t handle the truth, then you don’t have to read my blog. I only need people who are going to help me and not hurt me, because there’s already too much negativity in my life.

I will be blogging about my weight loss process at least once a week to keep myself going as well as probably doing other posts because I feel blogging is going to be a great outlet for me during this. I hope you guys will stick around and wish me good luck!



To play along, just answer the following three (3) questions…

• What are you currently reading?
• What did you recently finish reading?
• What do you think you’ll read next?

What are you currently reading? “The Walking Dead: Rise of the Governor” by Robert Kirkman and Jay Bonansinga

What did you recently finish reading? “Origin” by J.A. Konrath-Never conventionally published in Tree book form due to being rejected, which I found out AFTER reading this….Crazy! I can’t understand why this was rejected! I loved this book! I have read many tree books that were nowhere near as good as this one!

What do you think you’ll read next? “The Killer of Little Shepherds: A True Crime Story and the Birth of Forensic Science” by Douglas Starr



Happy 28th Birthday to my husband who I love so much! Born on Friday the 13th and is the reason I NOW consider this day lucky instead of UNlucky!

Welcome!

As always, you may answer these questions in your own post or in the comments section!

This 5 Question Friday was brought to you by:

On to the questions!

1. What’s your view on men wearing sandals (yay or nay)? Yay, I suppose because my husband wears them all the time, although I CAN understand why people might not like it because let’s face it…guy’s feet are not always that great looking….

Ok, and my husband can have some gnarly toenails, but hey, sandals and flip flops are just so comfy…so I deal with it! LOL


2. What song do you love but are embarrassed to admit? Well, probably quite a few but I admit to watching “Spice World” today for the first time since I was a teen and I was SO singing along with the songs! I just can’t help it, I was a HUGE Spice Girls fan and I admit to still liking the cheesy pop songs…makes me feel like a young girl again!

3. What summer camp should they make for moms? Well, I’m not a mom but I am sure moms would LOVE a camp where they go and just get to SLEEP as long as they want without interruptions, have a great nanny tend to their kids without worry, a great chef cook their meals and a masseuse give them as many massages as they like! Am I right, friends that are mommies?!

4. What is the most romantic song? (Not necessarily your favorite or your wedding song…) I always dislike questions about my favorite songs because my favorites change SO much! I love a lot of romantic songs and I’m not sure what I consider the MOST romantic….
I think my wedding song probably IS one of the most romantic songs to me, even though it was an older song I originally heard on a soap opera…it’s called “Baby, you’re my destiny” and I forget who the guy/girl who sing it are, but I just LOVE the lyrics
“Baby, you’re my destiny,
you and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see,
From now until eternity,
You were always meant to be
My destiny.”
That’s just the chorus part, the rest of it is just as sweet. 🙂

5. Do you have an embarrassing pregnancy story? No, I don’t yet have one but I have heard enough about people pooping during pregnancy to make me scared and nervous that that might happen to me someday!





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