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{December 31, 2011}   12 in ’12

I’ve said before that I don’t like resolutions. Part of the reason is because when I hear people make them, I almost expect them to fail. Not because I want them to fail, but because resolutions are notoriously known for failing.
Last year, I challenged myself to the Post a day challenge and to some, that could have been considered a resolution, but part of why it worked so well for me was because I refused to ever consider it as a resolution. I like the sound of a challenge, especially when it’s one that I know will challenge me but at the same time, I know I will enjoy the process. In about 11 days, I will have completed that challenge and the jury is still out on whether I will continue posting daily or not. I will say there is a pretty good chance of it. Some people very close to me have expressed sadness at me not continuing and they could have a strong factor on my decision.
I HAVE come up with my own personal 2012 challenge, though. One that I think is very conceivable because it’s all about small steps toward a bigger goal. I am calling it the “12 in ’12 Challenge” and it begins tomorrow with the first part. I welcome others to take part however they would like as well. This is how it works: There are 12 months and at the beginning of each month, I will introduce a small challenge to myself about a greater change I want to make. For example, in January, my goal is to drink more water. Right now, I hardly drink any water, so if I can even incorporate a bottle of water every other day for now, I will be following my challenge. By the time February gets here, I will introduce a new goal for that month, but keep January’s going as well, thereby doing 2 things in the 2nd month.  Each month, I will add another small challenge, so by the time December, the 12th month hits, I will have 11 challenges hopefully made into lasting changes in my life and be working on a 12th one!
I think picking smaller goals will work best for me, because smaller is easier to handle than a big goal. I only have January’s picked out so far, but I hope to eventually have all my goals figured out ahead of time. I think I will reserve the right to change the goals up, as long as it’s before the month has started, if I think of a better one I would like to instate. Like I said, if anyone would like to follow along with my idea, feel free to. You can use bigger goals for yourself, more than one goal a month, whatever works best for you.
I also think the secret to any challenge is not to be too hard on yourself. We all will mess up at times, but it’s no big deal. Just forget it, wake up the next day and give it your best shot!
So…who likes my plan?
It’s almost time for “12 in ’12”!

*Happy New Year everyone, Have fun and be safe!*

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Welcome! This is the last Five Question Friday of 2011! 🙂

As always, you may answer these questions in your own post or in the comments section!

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1. What’s the oldest piece of clothing in your closet? I’m not sure…I probably need to throw away some clothes…I think I still own a few items back from a decade ago? And I have some baby clothes for when I have a baby, if it’s a girl anyways, lol…that my Mom and Nanny gave to me to save…
2. How many random blog readers have you met? None, really…the only ones I see that are my blog readers are my friends from around here and my family…
3. Do you let your kids stay up till midnight on New Years Eve? (Or, if you don’t have kiddos yet, did you get to stay up until midnight as a child?) If I had kids, I would let them stay up because it’s a special occasion and I was always allowed to stay up as a child myself…It was considered a special privilege 🙂 But then again, I never had a strict bedtime, because I always went to bed at a decent time myself as a child…
4. What are the gas prices where you live? Last time I looked it was around $3.24, but it depends on what place you go to…
5. What is one resolution that you know you should do but are too afraid to try? I don’t believe in resolutions because they’re are so hard to keep and no one hardly ever does so they are like broken promises to yourself…There are personal changes I would like to make in my life but the issue is not being too afraid, it’s more that I haven’t found the motivation yet to go for it…


{December 29, 2011}   More bitter than sweet

I’ve heard about Bittersweet goodbyes before, but lately the ones I have had to say have been more bitter than sweet. Maybe I would feel different if all of my nieces and nephews were just a few hours away instead of 16 to 19. It sucks that my great nephews had not seen me in so long that I was like a stranger to them. It hurts even more not being sure how long it will be before I see them again and if they will still remember who I am. I know there are webcams and stuff, but nothing can replace getting to see them in person or give them a hug.
I also really hate that my best friend in this whole world is unable to just come over and hang out with me when we want to see each other. This is why as their van left, I cried and my husband offered me a hug.
Why must the time pass so fast? I wish I had more time with them. It always seems to go by too quickly. 😦



Doing this on my phone, so I don’t have the picture I usually use.

What are you currently reading? “Hannah’s Gift-Lessons from a Life Fully Lived” by Maria Housden

What have you recently finished reading? “Dance with a Vampire” (Vampire Kisses, #4) by Ellen Schreiber

What do you think you’ll read next? “The Raising” by Laura Kasischke



{December 27, 2011}   Under Pressure

No…that title is NOT referring to the song made famous by Queen and David Bowie. It’s referring both to blood pressure and being under pressure due to it.
Most people who read my blog on a regular basis probably know i’m a bigger girl and may know about my thyroid problem. Despite being a plus sized person for a majority of my life, I have always had good blood pressure readings. It just has never been an issue for me, until last night.
I have been feeling ok lately except for my feet swelling a lot in the past week and a half. That’s  something I have dealt with before and my mom, an ex nurse, always reassured me that it was probably due to my weight. Last night, I was visiting with family and I decided to use my nanny’s blood pressure monitor to check my pressure, just for the heck of it and no concern that it would be high. I took it and saw it was 184/102. Shocked, I asked my mom if the monitor was working, really hoping to hear it was broken. Unfortunately, the words I heard didn’t match my wish. It WAS working and when my mom saw how high it was, she immediately wanted me to go to the ER. Definitely NOT the place I wanted to be at 8:30 at night the day after Christmas when I want to be spending time with family. I ended up going, though, with one of my nieces (who is also my best friend) in tow.
I really felt almost stupid to be there, but it was better to be safe than sorry. While waiting, my husband slipped on the grass outside and got the back of him all dirty and ended up going home to clean up and change. Luckily, my mom went with me,too,so she could go back there with me and see what they said.
After all was said and done, I ended up arriving home around 3 a.m. with a diagnosis of pre-hypertension(to be confirmed) and a toothache caused by a fractured tooth that I had mistaken for an abscess. The hypertension could have been caused by stress, the fact both my mom and grandpa had high blood pressure, my weight, or pain from my tooth. All my lab work looked good so now it’s a matter of taking an antibiotic for my tooth so I can get it removed and keeping track of my blood pressure and following up with my doctor in a couple weeks.
They released me with orders to return should I experience a one sided headache, dizziness, nausea, vomiting,etc. which could be sides of a possible stroke due to high blood pressure. Fortunately, I haven’t experienced any of those things. Looking back on yesterday and the day before, I remember being dizzy and having to sit down at my in laws, waking up with a headache and taking advil before heading back to sleep and then re-waking with nausea, so the fact that my blood pressure could have been so high before and had I decided to push myself more and possibly dance to the wii or something, thereby causing a stroke, scares me. Could it have been more than a coincidence that I checked my blood pressure when I did and what would have happened had I not done so?
I’m only 28 years old. Last night was a sobering and scary experience and it’s not over yet. My blood pressure has been fluctuating all day and at times, it has been dangerously high. I am really praying that it’s just cause of my tooth and I still have years before actually going through hypertension.
Crossing my fingers that things will get better soon!



{December 26, 2011}   Goodbyes are hard to do

Today, my family from Austin and North Carolina left. I see the ones from Austin at least a few times a year, but the others, not so much. My newly married niece has been in town for a little over a week and before that, it had been almost 3 years since I had seen her. I hopefully will see her next year sometime but that seems like a long way away now. When I hugged her bye, I held her tight and said I wasn’t going to let her go so she couldn’t leave. Words I said both seriously and with humor to try to keep myself from crying. Sometime during the hug, I realized she was about to leave and I have no guarantees of a next time. None of us are even promised tomorrow and when saying goodbye, the truth of that rings clearer than ever. She let go before me and I tried to keep her close even as I knew I had to let go. As hard as it is, I had to. I then turned and faced the wall as the tears started to flow. I didn’t want anyone to see or hear me cry so I walked off to bid the tears adieu. I somehow stopped them and was able to gain the courage to keep them from overtaking me. 30 minutes after they left, she sent me a text message saying she missed us already and it made me want to cry again. She responded to this with, “I haven’t stopped.” 😦
I have no idea how I avoided crying again when I read that but I did. I suspect had I not been surrounded with my family from Indiana who are still here until Thursday, I would have burst out into tears. After Thursday I will say bye again and try my best not to cry. I may or may not be successful at not crying in front of people, but I know I will after they leave. I will be left feeling empty and sad missing them until I can get back to the numbness of missing them without the tears coming everytime I think about it. I love seeing my family but I hate ever so much to say goodbye.



{December 25, 2011}   Merry Christmas!

I’m sure not many people will be reading blogs today so I’m not going to do a long post. I even scheduled this the night before to tell the truth.
If you have read my blog for awhile, you may know I do consider myself a christian, therefore I do celebrate this day as Christ’s birthday. I am fully aware this is not the exact day he was born, but simply the day it is celebrated. My family will be taking time to celebrate this fact and to pray at meal times as well as maybe even reading the christmas story.
I just recently discovered this week that a newer member of my family is an atheist. Christmas is still celebrated but for a different reason and I’m fine with it. I’ve learned to accept people with different beliefs throughout my life and so far, we have got along good despite the fact that this same person just likes to win board games a little too much in my opinion. They still share interests and have some of the same views…kind of like some of my blogging buddies.
Is there a part of me that wishes this person shared my belief? Honestly…yes. How could I have a true belief in God and NOT want others to believe? I think I would seem like a hypocrite or fake then. But each person has to figure out how they feel on their own and in their own time. It’s not my place to force my beliefs on anyone.
Having said that, I am pretty confident in saying that not everyone in my family would agree with me…that is also ok. All I can really hope for is for everyone to be mature and not overly pushy with how they feel.
And my post has become longer than I meant for it to be. If you are still reading, I hope you have or had a great Hanukkah, kwanzaa, christmas, or whatever else you may celebrate and know that I appreciate the diversity of my wonderful blogging buddies. You guys have made this year wonderful and I appreciate you all! 🙂



{December 24, 2011}   Early Christmas Wish

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Short post today because I have been so busy. Tomorrow is Christmas Day and all my family is now here. My biggest wish for tomorrow is that everyone will have the christmas spirit and get along. Family is awesome but crowded spaces can bring out a mixture of personalities and from experience I have learned not every personality will mix well. The holidays can be both happy as well as stressful and tensions may get to a point where things escalate and explode after awhile. Yes, I am speaking from a personal situation that transpired today as well as past circumstances. It’s interesting how you can think your depression has gotten incredibly better and then you are put with people for long periods of time and lots of noise and constant chaos and then bam, it turns out things weren’t as under control as you think. Pair that with a bi-polar husband that most of your family doesn’t understand and things can get crazy.
But, this is not meant to be a depressing post and I don’t have regrets that my family is here. I am thrilled and I feel so blessed no matter what. My only wish is for me AND my husband to survive the holiday season without losing our  minds and for everyone to just have a great time together, being happy and safe.
That is also my wish for you guys…although maybe not so much the losing your mind unless that applies.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to you all!



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First of all..When I went to fivecrookedhalos to get the post an hour before midnight when the Thursday night sneak peek is usually already up, it wasn’t there and didn’t look like it would be posted…so this is actually the 5 questions asked last year. I wasn’t participating then, though, so they are new to me! 🙂

1. Do you regift…and if so, do you have a regifting horror story? I have regifted before but I make sure it’s to someone who doesn’t know that it was a regift and won’t be already the original giver…I have done it rarely, though…most of the time I don’t regift cause I like the gift LOL
2. Do you know what you are getting for Christmas this year? Only one thing for sure…my Mom is buying me my own domain on wordpress after Christmas 🙂
3. Who brings the most gifts in your family, you or Santa? When I had Santa, definitely him…lol….I don’t have kids yet so idk how to answer this…
4. What store do you love to buy jeans from? I honestly don’t wear jeans….
5. Christmas meal: Big, All Out Meal or Snacks and Apps? We do a big full out meal but if I had a choice, either one would be fine with me….I don’t really eat more than usual for Christmas, if anything, maybe less because I’m not a big turkey and dressing eater


Last Friday night, I stayed up finishing cleaning and watching “Hot in Cleveland” on Netflix….I watched so much of the show because of hilarious Betty White that I didn’t go to bed until morning. As I was heading for bed, my niece that moved to North Carolina recently with her Marine husband starts texting me saying she is bored cause her husband had to work and asking me how I’m doing and everything. I let her know I was just getting ready to try to sleep if my teeth will let me(turns out the bottom “wisdom tooth” I thought I was cutting was just an abscessed tooth next to where I would be cutting a tooth). So I message her for a bit and I go off to sleep…..

Normally, I would be awake around 4 in the afternoon. That afternoon I was still snoozing away, not expecting there would be any problem with this. Suddenly, I hear a knock at my door and my husband, who had JUST gone to bed in the afternoon…yea, we are crazy! went to go answer it. Then I hear a woman’s voice that I don’t recognize because I am half asleep and she is saying something about her husband using the bathroom. Well…I was like, “Tell her that her husband can find somewhere else to use one, what do they think we are? A 7-11?” Then I hear my husband say that someone is here to see me and I am like, ok…tell them to come back later, I am tired. Yes..I admit I can be a grumpy woman when I am tired. I then hear a woman say, “We took a wrong turn at Indiana and somehow ended up here” and I immediately hear my niece’s voice and look up and see her. I was in utter shock and disbelief. Then I turned to my left and saw her husband with the cell phone videotaping and I immediately ducked my head under the cover! It was one thing seeing my niece while I am in bed, my hair a mess and in my nightgown still…but to meet her husband for the first time. So NOT what I had in mind for my day, you know?! So I peek out and see him gone and talk to her for a bit, then hide back under when I see him again and I say that he must REALLY think I am crazy now, to which my niece replies, “Well, yea…your head is under the blankets!” LOL

Needless to say, my niece, her husband and my family in Indiana had known for quite awhile that instead of my niece and her husband coming a couple days AFTER Christmas, they were going to come in early and not tell anyone. None of the family in Texas had any clue. Me and my husband were the first to find out and then they patiently waited as I got dressed so we could go and surprise my mom, dad and Nanny. My mom’s face was one of shock. She was literally speechless for about a minute after she saw her! It was awesome, but yea, I still wish I hadn’t been surprised while lying in bed!

I wanted to post how excited I was on Saturday but was told I had to keep their presence here a secret so they could surprise their cousins in Austin when they came in today. Unfortunately, it looks like my family there isn’t coming until tomorrow, but my niece decided to let the secret out anyways so I am allowed to finally post about it.

So far, it has been fun having them here, going bowling with a couple of my friends and playing board games and video games and just chatting. It definitely has been filling my days until everyone else gets in town, too. It’s been nice to have people to hang out with to count down the days instead of just wasting them at the apartment, just us two, me and my hubby. It definitely has meant using the time I have to blog and schedule my posts so I don’t have to waste time away from family. Not that my blog isn’t important to me, but I just want to make sure nothing is keeping me from spending quality time with them!

So my secret is out on why I haven’t had much time to read and I’m glad I get to share this excellent surprise with everyone!

May all my friends and family,inside and outside of the blogging world, have just as much excitement as I have had in this past week! 🙂



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