That’s what I am titling THIS day..for those of you who don’t want to hear negative thoughts and live in a world where it’s ALWAYS butterflies and rainbows and you never feel sad, mad, angry or depressed even one minute of your life…..You may want to look away today. In fact, you may want to look away forever, because 100% positivity and happiness is NOT realistic. IF this world WAS all full of good, let’s be honest…How would you know to be grateful for those good moments? The BAD times in life make you so much more thankful for when things are looking up. If I had never had the downs, I would never know how to enjoy the ups as much as I do, right?
So today is a Debbie Downer Day for me. It didn’t start out that way, but it ended up so. My redness from my allergic reaction has gone down, of which I am vastly grateful, don’t get me wrong. My itching has gotten a little better…BUT Mother Nature dropped other bombs on me today….
Nevertheless, I WAS happy about my husband getting his TV receiver changed for free to an HD DVR. He was so excited about it and had been waiting for 2 weeks…….the technicians got here late, but they DID get here. Then another bomb dropped….Due to a city ordinance we were unaware of, we couldn’t switch our dish to an HD receiver because it was a lot bigger and would have to be in the middle of the roof instead of the eaves where our standard one was. UGH! So…disappointed husband who I feel bad for cause he was looking forward to this….the techs. didn’t even bother to work something out.
So I then had to get on the phone to DirecTV and ask them about changing the order to a regular DVR instead since HD is out of the question as long as we live in an apartment. I hate talking on the phone, BUT I did it for my husband. Got things straightened out, but STILL not happy with the technicians since I found out they COULD have modified their work order and obviously didn’t want to deal with it. Now we have the regular DVR receiver getting installed 16 days from now when we had already waited 2 weeks…..and it’s not even ME that it bothers so much. It was how excited my husband was and then how sad he was when things didn’t work out. I feel like I let him down and failed even though he says I didn’t……
And I fear this disappointment is making my bipolar husband go into his depressive phase. He is now talking about quitting his newest job and just doing this other telemarketing job, which is still OK money but it’s just commission, whereas the new job was hourly PLUS commission. I told him to sleep on it, but not sure if it will even make a difference. One of the things about him being bipolar is giving up on jobs too easily, which is something I have always known and accepted, although it’s not the best thing.
~Sighs~ I am ranting here because I just need somewhere to do so. This may possibly be more reality than some would ever want to read but it’s what I needed today. If you’re still around reading my blog tomorrow, thanks for sticking by me even when I’m a Debbie Downer…I intend to make tomorrow a Ursula Upper Day(just made that up).