I’ve decided to start a special “journal” for me called “My thoughts book”. The idea came from many different places, such as my friend Allison and people on WordPress, and I am now going to try to put the suggestions to some use. I’m going to keep a notebook with me at all times(or attempt to) and use it to put thoughts, ideas and dreams in it. Thoughts I have during the day that I think I would like to put in my blog, ideas to do with my blog and in my life and Dreams that I have and want to remember.
I always seem to catch myself during the day thinking “Oh, this would be good to put in my blog” and then by the time I actually DO my blog, I never remember it or at least don’t remember it enough to do it any justice. Therefore, I believe this may help me in my quest to write better posts and maybe work on my organization skills as well.
“Anyone can become a writer. The trick is staying a writer.” ~Harlan Ellison
THAT quote is so true. I have been told before that I should consider writing a book because I’m good at writing. Honestly, I believe maybe 1 out of 100 posts I do are actually any good. Most of the time my mind is such a chaotic mess that once the thoughts hit my fingers and are transferred to here, they sound so amateur to me. I do like to write but I suffer from a fear that I seriously lack the dedication it takes to become a genuinely good writer. I KNOW that if I could embrace my inner love for writing then I could find some dedication but even then, I feel like I could maybe be good but I don’t know if I could ever be great. I suppose it’s a self esteem problem of sorts.
“True ease in writing comes from art, not chance, as those who move easiest have learned to dance.” ~Alexander Pope
Reading the quotes from some of these incredibly great authors leads me to believe that I’m not the only one who came to the realization that writing is not something that you’re just going to sit down and ALWAYS be great at. I guess even the best have to work at it and delete, rewrite,delete, rewrite. It may surprise my friends to know that I erase and redo my blog posts ALL the time because I never feel they are good enough. Must I always second guess myself? I swear that I am NOT a perfectionist, at least not in other things in my life. It’s just when it comes to writing, even if no one may even read it, I want it to be done right or not at all.
“Start early and work hard. A writer’s apprenticeship usually involves writing a million words (which are then discarded) before he’s almost ready to begin. That takes a while.” ~David Eddings
Thanks Mr. David Eddings, which I must admit I have no idea who you are. This quote and all the others came at the right time. The Daily Post was completely in sync with me today. I don’t know how it knew about my inner turmoil with writing lately but somehow it knew and it really helps me to see that what I struggle with is the same as what every writer seems to.
When I started this writing every day challenge, I had no idea that it would effect me this way. I wanted help with my procrastination and I wanted to prove to myself that I can challenge myself to do something really hard for me to do and actually DO it. Now, though, I feel like also by blogging every day I’m also forcing myself to use my brain again more than I have since I was in college AND also turning my “like” for writing into more of a “love” relationship. At times I admit, it is more of a “love/hate” one but nevertheless, it’s inspiring me to write more and I hope it will also help my writing get better through practice.
For all you writers out there, do me a favor and comment if you read this. I want to know what are your opinions on writing? Do you find it difficult at times? Does the difficulty make it worth it more when you are successful? And if you have read any of my other posts, answer honestly, Do you think I have the ability to get better and actually hone my skills into becoming a writer?